But lately, I've been feeling so frustrated with relationships. They are just so much damn hard work. Even the easy relationships eventually have to go deeper and stretch and grow and change. And I'm just tired of it. Today especially. Partially cause I'm just plain sleep tired, but also because I'm having to look at myself and my laziness and selfishness and the mirror of relationships is a particularly accurate/cruel one to assess your weaknesses through. I just get frustrated when friendships involve confrontation and then instead of getting better then get worse. I waste stupid amounts of energy thinking about other peoples business. I'm drained sticking my nose where is doesn't belong, trying to fix things I am rediculously under qualifies to solve. On days like today I just wish I could only work with people who are easy and simple and healthy all the time. People not all like me.
Additionally we just did a parenting seminar, which was amazing, but it sure made me bummed about parts of my relationship with my kids. Having to think about how often I say what I don't mean or worse- forget to say what I do mean, is a draining and disappointing endeavor.
Taking into account all my wife-ly shortcoming, makes me feel so murrose. Why are relationships so difficult?
Of course I know the answer to this and can take a positive spin of it, but as I've discussed that's not what this blog is for. This is not to be optimistic and brighter side and deeper meaning- this is to tell the truth about it not always being peach-y and edited around here.
